Today’s personal affirmation:
I’m lovable just the way I am, and that knowledge inspires me to show up authentically in every interaction.
Today’s personal affirmation:
I’m lovable just the way I am, and that knowledge inspires me to show up authentically in every interaction.
This video breaking down the obsession with Trump is such a great watch.
It’s March 1st and you know what that means: it’s my birthday month bitches! 🎉 Can’t believe I’ll be closing the chapter on my 20s. Boy am I looking forward to what comes next.
I cannot wait.
If you still don’t realize that large corporations are currently in control of our public spaces online, I’m not sure what’ll do it. It’s scary to see people advocate for the censorship of Joe Rogan. That power will always be used against progressive ideals and organization.
My wonderful friend Celestial just launched their Ko-fi! I’m so happy to be a monthly member.
When I first realized that I might’ve been raised in a cult, I immediately wondered, “How can I be the only one in my family to see this?” I was the fourth generation in my family to be stuck in this cult, and only a few had decided to ever leave.
Almost three years later, I know that I’m just a pattern breaker. And that’s an extremely difficult role to play. It means being ostracized by people who claimed to love you. It means accepting new truths and new information, no matter how much it completely shatters your sense of reality.
Religion was ultimately an empty sense of security. I thought I knew why humans existed, what my purpose was, and what happened after death. And now I don’t. And interestingly, it’s actually super freeing to not know the answers. Because I’d rather have questions that I can’t answer, than answers I can’t question.
I had such an amazing time visiting Kenz this weekend. It continues to blow my mind how you can meet some of the most amazing people by total accident on the internet.
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Now Lewdle is my kind of game.
My second favorite Slack keyboard shortcut is definitely ⇧ + Esc. Which is really only beaten by ⌘ + Q.
Little impromptu trip to Disneyland.
Had such an amazing weekend in Palm Springs. I feel so loved and joyful. What a way to end the year and start a new one. Happy New Year!! 🎊🎆🎈 ❤️
I saw this on Facebook and had to share. In the past year of therapy, I’ve come to realize how horrible and fucked it is for parents to be your first abuser. Both of my parents hit me (although my mother wanted to be less involved in this type of abuse). I got whipped with the belt too many times to count throughout my life.
I used to be in the “I got hit and turned out fine” group of people. No honey, you didn’t turn out fine if you think it’s ok to beat children. Full stop. For many years I just thought it was normal. That parents that actually care about their kids hit them.
But now I know I didn’t deserve that. And neither does anyone else.
The data looks super promising for Omicron. I really enjoyed this video that analyzes data from a few different countries. Happy to see this.
It’s almost become a yearly tradition for me to tackle a creative project of some type over the Christmas break. Not this year. I’ve got no gas left in the tank.
I get so tired of how sex negative society can be, and even how that bleeds into the queer and polyam communities. It’s ok to want sex, and it’s ok for that to be a key way in which you express love.
Today was my last day of work for the year. I’m so excited to have two whole weeks to rest, recharge, and spend time with people I care about.
This past weekend was certainly one for the books. It was a weekend full of kind, supportive, and like-minded people. I could be 100 percent myself and accepted fully nonetheless. I also seemed to unlock the next level of the game called life, since I introduced myself to so many people and made quite a few friends in the process. Things are looking up.
Kelly and I put up our first ever Christmas tree tonight 🎄 I’m so excited 😍😍
I sent the following message to some of my mother’s family and select old friends:
Howdy y’all. Just wanted to let you know from the horse’s mouth that I’ve decided to [no] longer be a Jehovah’s Witness. I encourage you to do some objective research into your beliefs. I was certainly surprised by what I found. Sending love and hugs. If you ever need me, you know how to reach me. May the force be with you ❤️
It feels incredibly freeing to finally send this message. I haven’t had contact with much family in the past two-ish years. When I first debated leaving the cult, it was incredibly scary to think about how my family would react or how they’d treat me.
In case you didn’t know, leaving the Jehovah’s Witness organization means essentially saying goodbye to everyone you’ve ever known. Members are instructed to shun people who leave the religion, even family. It’s quite nuts. My research led me to conclude without hesitation that this religion is false and for some reason that means I don’t get to have a family anymore. The only reason I got to do this on my own timeline is because the pandemic turned out to be a fantastic cover to leave this cult under the radar. Which I guess is something to be grateful for?
But what used to be scary, I’ve now come to accept. I mean, my family has shunned me before, so what does it really matter if they do it again? Like, ultimately, people that actually care about you don’t emotionally blackmail you into being part of their religion 😘
So this feels like closure. I hope to have left things open for any of them to reach out if they ever wake up from their indoctrination. Till then, it feels good for people to know where I stand, and I think it’ll help me start writing the next chapter of my life.